Dear Rabbi,
I suffer greatly from many chronic afflictions. Often,
while lying in agony I wonder if I am not being punished for my wickedness,
being a person who regularly desecrates the Sabbath and transgresses all the other
laws of the Law.
Why? Do you ask that?
And why am I writing this (on a Sunday)?
Enclosed is a copy of a poem I wrote some time ago when I
was pondering the issue.
How Religion accommodates Modernity is a major concern. While purists can live in contact with the Modern
World may satisfy a core or true believers, there are many people in the
community who are bound up, for any number of reasons, in the Modern World that
makes total observance impossible.
The “all or nothing” approach of Orthodox Judaism has twice
in recent decades put me off what had become regular attendance and home
compliance, that was almost complete, lacking only a final, personal commitment
and for some reason that I did not know how to do and having reached the edge
of the precipice and then not jumping, I slowly backed away and retreated till
what was almost “all” became “nothing”.
This poem expresses the idea that if one feels one must
transgress and desecrate the Sabbath, then one should do it mindfully. The double commandment to both remember and
keep the Sabbath means that people should not live within such a “fence” that
they keep the Sabbath in every detail without any awareness of. This does permit the experience of pure
delight but while it is unblemished in keeping the Sabbath, it is easy to lose mental
awareness that what one is doing is actually keeping the Sabbath, thereby not
remembering. Is keeping but not
remembering, any better than remembering but not keeping?
Many things in the Torah have two versions, from Creation
on. It is a poetic work, where different
versions of the same story make a balanced pair of views that contain the truth
between them, as if a photograph were taken from two sides of something, so it
looked a bit different in each. So the two versions of the fourth commandment
may be an example of this, in what to the writer(s) must have been the crucial,
quotable part of the whole. Perhaps one
day the Stone Tablets will be found, still in the Arc that was hidden away
before the destruction of the First Temple and never found and restored for the
Second. New ground-piercing vision
technology that can find hidden rooms in rock tombs will eventually find hidden
caves in mountains.
The people who claim the Torah is compiled from various
sources use the different versions as supposed evidence that different versions
of the stories were concatenated.
However, if one of the most important commandments can exist in
different forms, from the same hand, then surely so can all the rest. It is amazing that someone could tell the
story in this poetic way, rather than assume it is just the consequence of
multiple versions.
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